Cold, but sunny each day this week.
The spurt of energy and the lifting of the depression I felt last week...lasted two days. That's it.
I have absolutely NO motivation to do anything. I go to bed at Midnight and if I don't set my alarm, I sleep until 10:30. I'm tired. Just tired. Not physically tired, that would be impossible because I do nothing, but I suppose emotionally tired?
So many people I know have had the NASTY BUG! The cold/flu, whatever it is, where they feel so miserable for weeks, then the cough for more weeks and then the awful tiredness. I don't have that excuse.
I am NOT going to the Old School Gal Pals luncheon tomorrow. #1--it is being held in a place some distance from here. #2-it is being held in a really (to me) deplorable restaurant in a small, caution light only, town. #3-my 2nd ex occasionally eats lunch there and although it would probably perk me up to see him and stare darts at him or go over and introduce myself to his now wife with a, "Hi. I'm Judy. Don's fourth wife--I think fourth. Aren't you his seventh?" I just don't have the energy after all that to come home and spend the rest of the day on my knees, asking God to forgive me for my nastiness.
I AM going up to The Farm on Friday, to have lunch and spend the afternoon with my Lil' Sis. We shall play a game and it will be a great day.
Other than that? I am the most boring person I know
Tonight, I have determination to get up in the morning and clean up this place, dust and vacuum and wash my bedding.
Tomorrow morning, that determination may be buried, along with the junk in the corner of my bedroom.
I almost wish I were on the East Coast where I could get excited about the expected blizzard. At least, that would be something.
Yawn!
First off, you are NOT boring! You may be bored, not boring. You're highly intelligent; I wish I could do half of what you accomplishment; you knit, you make ancestry books for all your kids. So there. Be quiet. :)
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Yeh! What she says!
DeleteJust go with the flow. Life is just like you describe ... busy and productive, then rest and recuperate. At least I have the same thing. I just quit beating up myself on my lazy days! I'm happy that I don't feel compelled to fill up every minute of every day. I love looking back and remembering how much I did do! I admire you for crocheting, knitting, researching, learning, reading and keeping yourself social. You have had a lot of emotional stress which is exhausting. Once you heal a bit more, you might feel a little better! THANKS FOR WRITING!
ReplyDeleteYou're anything but boring, Judy. Sometimes we just need to laze around for a bit. Be easy on yourself. You're used to being more productive. Up and down. Thus is life.
ReplyDeleteYou certainly aren't boring. I look forward to you blog to hear what you are doing.
ReplyDeleteWho says we have to be busy and energetic every day.
I agree, you're anything but boring. This time of the year when we get so little sun, it's easy to feel like doing nothing.
ReplyDeleteYour internal dialogue is fascinating because most of us can identify with what you think and that makes us feel better knowing we're all in the same 'club.'
I wish I could sleep as well as you do. I'm up every two hours to pee so I don't get a good quality sleep.
Well, you may be bored with yourself but you are not boring to the rest of us! It's this cold weather! Even the sun shine doesn't help when you can't get out there and enjoy it! If you lived closer I'd set you up with my dad! He'd keep you hopping!!
ReplyDeleteand how old is your Dad? Does he have a car? Or maybe we could meet half-way? and how much fun would it be to hang out with the Gohl/Tippet/Locasio families!!!!! and I could write about him in my blog and embarrass you. HAH!
DeleteYou are anything but boring! I found your fantasy about your ex so funny. I relate - though I daren't write about it - with my latest boyfriend. I feel a giant "Whew!" that his life is in someone else's hands now.
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