Tentatively Peeking Out At The World

Today's high temperature was:  46 degrees

Partly sunny--quite breezy

Frost on the rooftops every morning now.

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Breakfast every morning since I was 15.

Note--I even have the bunny spoon I use.

Put cup with milk in microwave, push 1 2 3, hit go--perfect temperature

Sometimes a dollop of marshmallow creme on top--as I had this morning.

As Farfel would say, 

"N E S T L E S--Nestle's makes the very best

Chook-lit!"

(then he snap his jaws shut.)

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I am experiencing a new thing in my life--procrastination.  I hope it is a fleeting issue.

I think about something that needs doing, like dusting, vacuuming, going to the store--and think, "I don't feel like it.  I will do it tomorrow."  Then tomorrow arrives, and the same feeling. 

I did not go to church on Sunday--did not go anywhere on Saturday.  Only went out for two hours with Andrew on Monday evening and that seemed like a real effort--until I did it.  A call--prescriptions waiting for me at Wal-Mart--last Friday!  Another call on Monday to remind me.  I decided to go Tuesday--but didn't.  Another call to remind me.

Yesterday was a perfect day for a nap.  It was dark, very windy and raining all day long.  At 2:00, I kicked my recliner back to get a nap--then said "NO!"  Put my shoes on, found my old raincoat and jumped into the car.

Up to Wal-Mart and saw that the summer long construction on the intersection is all done!!!  Beautiful!  Got the prescriptions and took my bottles back.  The store seemed a bit cleaner and didn't smell--too bad.

Back in the car, across the highway to the Meijer's store.  Went in on the Pharmacy end and walked clear to the back, looking at things along the way--picking up some photo paper, suet blocks for the birds and back to the Soda Pop area where Pepsi products were 10 for 10 with the 11th one free.  Loaded up.  Back out to the car.  It was raining like mad, the wind blew my hair straight up on top of my head.  Rain falling down my neck as I struggled to the car and then blowing in my face as I loaded up my trunk.

Home and backed in close to the porch so I could unload.  Pearl called, "Are you nuts?  Going out in this kind of weather?"

"Oh well...I needed something to get me out of the house."

.....and...I felt better last night.

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Had terrible nightmares during the night.  I woke up kicking and swinging my arms and yelling.  Fighting with ghosts, I suppose.  Sub-conscious anger coming out at the step-mother?  Weird, because in my "normal" state, I am not a confronter/arguer/fighter.  Suppressed rage will come out--one way or another.

Woke up again at 8:00--Buddy was patting my face and nudging my shoulder--touching my chin with his wet, cold nose. 

Dar came over a couple hours later.  She's a mess--probably not any worse then me.  She got in trouble at work for telling the young manager he didn't know what he was doing.  She got in trouble at church for confronting the young woman who testified that Dar was seen abusing her grandchildren.  Apparently the Pastor told Dar that "church is not the place to be berating another person."  She's gained almost twenty pounds and is angry about that.  She wants to sell her place and move to North Carolina (oh, please do.)  Her neighbor's dog acted like he was going to bite her because he came to the steps when she was sweeping them and she hit him with the broom.  She bought a real expensive garbage can (I told her to buy a cheap one because they get so abused by the garbage men) and the first week, they put the garbage can upside down on the ground and bent the attached cover.  She will report them to the office.  

I don't remember--there was more with pacing up and down my living room and flinging her arms around during her rant.  Then--she was done--and off she went.

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I don't seem to have much of interest to say lately.  I will sign off now and talk tomorrow.--Jude