Friday afternoon--late, I got a phone call from my doctor's office. I did not pick it up and let it go to voice mail. I was going to wait until Sunday, go into my Patient Portal and read the results myself.
So all day Saturday I reasoned, they wouldn't have called me so late on a Friday if they had bad news and wanted me to come right in. Then I reasoned that perhaps they had called to set up an early morning appointment on Monday. Then I just quit reasoning and cross stitched and watched the basketball tournament.
Up early Sunday morning and clicked into my Patient Portal--still the report was not visible. So I reasoned that they weren't going to allow me to access the report until my doctor cleared it and since I hadn't answered his call on Friday..............................must be something bad showing on that CT scan.
Then, I just quit reasoning, said a prayer of 'whatever will be, will be" and cross stitched and watched the basketball tournament. I am real good at denial. If I don't know about it, it doesn't exist.
Then around 2:00, I got real brave. My anxiety was gone and so I dialed into my voice mail.
"Hello Miss Judy, this is Michelle from Doc Vassallo's office. I just wanted to call and let you know your CT scan is normal. There are no lesions, inflammation or COPD in your lungs. One teeny nodule, in the lower right lobe, which is nothing and most people have...kind of like a small scar from a bout of the flu or a bad cold you once had. I know when you and I talked, you were expecting something to show up, but.........you're still as healthy as a horse. (laugh). Have a great weekend, my friend. Oh, it says here, you can have another one in six months, if you want to. Byeeeeee."
Now to prepare my mind for my first colonoscopy on the 30th. I will think about that next Monday. This week I have two sessions of PT and nothing else--so far.