A different feeling this year--the week between Christmas and New Year's. It's like I'm in limbo--waiting for something to happen. Like there is something I am supposed to do--an appointment or something equally important--and I've forgotten about it. I keep looking at my calendar and there are no notations on the days of this week. For some reason, it just feels odd to me. Maybe because Christmas came on a Sunday, and to me, it felt like any ordinary Sunday and so this week is supposed to be dotted with grocery shopping, or other errands?
It's probably just me. I am a weird duck at times. My thought processes and all.
I have noticed that some blog buddies get upset if they don't have enough visitor's to their blog each day. I have no clue how to even check and see who or how many stop by for a read. The only way I know, is from the comments left. I don't really care how many visitor's I have. Maybe that's because my blog isn't an educational one? It's kind of like my diary--where I write down the weird things I think of and tell you to see if you ever have those same thoughts. It's always comforting when someone says they too feel the same way--makes me realize that I'm not the only one with strange thoughts in this world. LOL
It would be nice if everyone that stopped by left a comment, but that's not necessary. I won't quit writing my posts just because people don't comment or even stop by. I guess this blog is for me--to post in and not feel so alone and lonely.
"You need to get out more," people tell me. Even my son said, "You should get a job at Walmart as a greeter or go to the Senior Center." EGAD!!! Is he trying to give me advice or drive me nutz? Of course, at 58 years old and out and about to have lunch with his friends everyday, he has no clue.
Going out requires gas for the car. I am allowed $20.00 a month gas money in my budget. "Go to the Mall and just walk around." Why in the world would I want to do that? I have never enjoyed going to the Mall or shopping, even when I was younger. If I went to the Mall or any store, it was to get what I needed, get outta there and get back home.
Where I grew up, on the farm, and after I was married--going to town--which was 20 miles away--was for a specific reason. To get food or a dentist or doctor appointment. Usually we did two or three of those things in one trip. Dentist appointment for me and the kids, then grocery shopping.
I make lists of things I have to do and where I have to go and try and do all of them in one afternoon. Go to the bank, hair cut, stop at the inkjet refill store, stop at Michael's for needed supplies. I can honestly say that in the 13 years I have lived here--only 2.5 miles away from a lot of stores, I have never gone--what we used to call, window shopping. Why would I want to browse in a store, knowing full well there was nothing in that store that I needed or wanted? Such a waste of time. I much prefer to shop on-line, but then too, it is always for something I need--not just to "look around."
Perhaps it's the money issue. I don't have a spare dollar to spend and if I went browsing, I'd probably see something that I really wanted and couldn't buy. I tend to like the Pier One store up the way, went in there twice to buy something I needed, but know enough to stay out. There would be a trunk or a colored glass canister set or something I'd love to have. Nope! Just stay away.
The only shopping I have enjoyed this past few years was shopping for my carpet and furniture. BUT--I didn't browse. I did that on-line and knew when I entered the store what I wanted--found it--ordered it--and got out.
No wonder I am bored most of the time. HAH!
Marcia asked about John--since his dog Maisey died, I haven't seen him much. He walked her twice a day and they always stopped in so Maisey could get her treat--Cheerios. For nearly two years--I saw them twice a day.
John took a custodial job at the high school--working nine to five--at night! Personally, I think it's too much for him with his bad shoulder, knee and foot, but he reacted much like a person whose spouse had died. Jumping into something new right away.
I've known a lot of widows/widowers who started dating immediately, or bought a brand new car, or sold the house. He's kind of acting like that--only getting a job.
I see him maybe twice a month now and it's always for a reason. He bought muffins at Costco and he thinks I need one. He stopped over on the 24th with a gift--cashews. I gave him 2 quarts of spaghetti sauce I had made. Other than that, if I am sitting in this street facing room, I see him drive by on his way to work, at 8:30 in the evening, or on his way to church on Sunday. That's it.
He did clean out our driveways after the big 9" snow drop early this month, but he didn't stop in to get warm, like he used too. I expect any day, to hear that he is selling his place and moving back to Brighton. He much prefers living in town where he can walk to everything.
I guess, Maisey was our connection and now that she's gone, so is the connection?