Christmas is coming soon--Friday will be our family get together. Not Christmas Eve, as it has been for the 77 years of my life, but Friday. Bah Humbug!!! Put the smile on my face and make sure I "appear" happy so I don't make anyone feel bad.
So this year, not only will I be alone on Christmas Day, but Christmas Eve also. I may use those two days to put all the decorations away!!
This is what I posted on Face Book:
"I wish I knew where this black cloud of depression came from. I have no reason to be blue or sad or depressed, but I sure as heck am and have been for a couple of weeks. I won't listen to Christmas music because it just makes it worse. and, if I hear "I'll be Home for Christmas", one more time in a store, I am going to stand in the corner and cry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
I was really surprised at how many of my FB friends feel the same way. Even those who are married and will have ALL their family gathered together on Christmas Day.
I decorated to the hilt this year, because my sister insisted that it would make me feel better. It just makes me sadder.
So what is there to celebrate on this half-year birthday of mine? It is the Winter Solstice and as of tomorrow, the day-light hours are going to start to become longer.
I'm real happy about that, but honestly--I do prefer the Summer Solstice!