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Onward and upward! something that you say in order to encourage someone to forget an unpleasant experience or failure and to think about the future instead and move forward.

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Wednesday, December 21, 2016

A Cause for Celebration?

Today is my half-year birthday.  Is that a cause for celebration?  Nope!  There is always the thought, I could be dead by this time next year.  I suppose that is why I pack away my Christmas decorations--all carefully marked with names on the boxes of who is to get certain ornaments.  I'm like a Boy Scout--always be prepared.

Christmas is coming soon--Friday will be our family get together.  Not Christmas Eve, as it has been for the 77 years of my life, but Friday.  Bah Humbug!!!  Put the smile on my face and make sure I "appear" happy so I don't make anyone feel bad.

So this year, not only will I be alone on Christmas Day, but Christmas Eve also.  I may use those two days to put all the decorations away!!

This is what I posted on Face Book:

"I wish I knew where this black cloud of depression came from. I have no reason to be blue or sad or depressed, but I sure as heck am and have been for a couple of weeks. I won't listen to Christmas music because it just makes it worse. and, if I hear "I'll be Home for Christmas", one more time in a store, I am going to stand in the corner and cry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

I was really surprised at how many of my FB friends feel the same way.  Even those who are married and will have ALL their family gathered together on Christmas Day.

I decorated to the hilt this year, because my sister insisted that it would make me feel better.  It just makes me sadder.

So what is there to celebrate on this half-year birthday of mine?  It is the Winter Solstice and as of tomorrow, the day-light hours are going to start to become longer.

I'm real happy about that, but honestly--I do prefer the Summer Solstice!


  1. I have no idea why half the blog has white around the words. Probably because I copied and pasted my FB post there?

  2. I didn't know how to post a comment, so I wrote an encouragement for you and didn't select the right profile, I guess, and I lost it! But, I'll try again. Congratulations on your half-birthday! It should be a kind of magical year for you, with double sevens! I hope a friend will invite you to share Christmas with them. Nancy

  3. I am so sorry... And that is all I'm going to say.

    "Polly-Anna" types of *advice*, do not help.

    Just sending many, many gentle hugs your way...

    Luna Crone

  4. Just a tiny thought... I really don't remember which side you were on, with the election. If you were on the Hillary side, I suppose that can make you more depressed.

    I know all about 8 years of such depression, about the direction, my Beloved Country, was being taken in.

    For myself, I am happy, and looking forward to Jan. 20, 2017. For the first time, in 8 long years.

    If you were on the other side, feel free to not publish this comment. It will be fine by me.

    I just thought, if you were happy with the election, you have Jan. 20th, to look forward to.

    Many gentle hugs,
    Luna Crone

  5. Praying for the sun to be out for the next few days, so that could hopefully help with the blahs. I miss my son a lot and he won't be home for Christmas. Maybe I can visit with him soon.
    Can you plan a special meal or treat on the weekend? Stay in and watch White Christmas or Holiday Inn in front of your fireplace? That's what I'm hoping to do. Know that you're in my thoughts.
    Hugs to you!

  6. One way to look at is that you STILL know Fridays from Saturdays and Sundays. Maybe in another year your family could tell you their party is on Christmas Eve and you won't know if you all were actually celebrating week after Thanksgiving. LOL

    I try to call someone I haven't talked in a while in between the holidays. That gives me something to look forward to so Christmas day isn't so long.

  7. Just the fact that you are so honest about how you feel, is a sign of hope. I wonder if your depression may be triggered by a missing nutrient. I had that happen recently and bloodwork revealed several things needing to be changed and almost overnight, the blues lifted. It is a HORRIBLE feeling. So sorry you are in such a low place, and may relief come your way soon.
    Sending you Christmas wishes!!

  8. You're connecting with a lot of people with this post. It's a tough time of year for many. I hope you have a good time on Friday, Judy.

  9. Thank you for your comment, on my "Who Is Father Christmas?" post.

    I posted a reply, to your comment, on my blog. I think I know who you were referring to. :-)

    Luna Crone

    1. You're right!!! See? I told you I was getting senile. LOL