Main Street in my hometown of Byron, Michigan
Wasn't it just last week that I was saying how happy I am that I am poor...because it has made me appreciate everything I have? Wasn't that me?
Well--I'm over that now! I'm not happy! It is a struggle on most days. There is a lot of stress and fear involved.
My budget promises $50.00 left over every month. My budget doesn't allow for "unexpecteds"--like a $60.00 service fee for the cable company to come out and fix my phone. I understood that if the problem originated with their equipment, I didn't have to pay. Apparently, a critter gnawing through their lines does not constitute a problem with their equipment. Entirely my fault--even though they didn't have their line covered in an appropriate manner!
This Thursday is my luncheon with the Gal Pals. Next Monday is my grandson Alex' 8th birthday. Do I got to lunch or do I take Alex out for his birthday supper? Well--you know the answer to that! I can no longer take the kids shopping for their birthday present--I take them out for supper and give them dollar amounts of the year's old they are. It will probably cost me $30.00 for Alex's supper and his $8.00 birthday money.
When I pay all my bills this month, I will have $8.00 left over. I guess I didn't want a hair cut after all! I guess I can get an oil change on my car next month! I guess I don't really need to buy any more food do I?
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I went to the Food Bank today. They yelled at me again because I didn't get enough "weight" of food. They had no Tuna, which I needed. I am only allowed 4 canned vegs or fruits. I got green beans and soup. I DID score on a nice looking piece of rib eye and some hamburger patties. I didn't need any free laundry detergent, but I did get 4 rolls of bathroom tissue. I also got 4 apples and a shriveled up cucumber and a bag of wilted lettuce. Also a dozen eggs were pressed on me, although, I never eat eggs and only needed a couple for some Salmon patties. I will give the rest to Pearl.
I shouldn't have posted on FB that I was feeling depressed. The comment, while loving and kind, don't help much. I was advised to "get out". Get in the car--drive to the mall--find a sale and buy something for myself. Bake something you like--the house will smell so good.
I CAN'T get out and drive the car anywhere. I have $40.00 a month for gas for the car--that is not conducive for just driving around willy nilly. I might want to drive up and visit my sister, so I have to conserve.
I would like to bake something I like. I have apples so I could make half a recipe for my favorite Raw Apple Cake--unfortunately, I am out of brown sugar and only have 2 cups of sugar.
I WILL get $18.00 in food assistance on the 21st. That will buy me milk and something else. I won't get my favorite little cake this time.
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They took away the steps by the back door today--things are looking better.
Neighbor Tami has also cleaned up her yard--which gives me a much better view.
It's been a very depressed day--can you tell?