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Onward and upward! something that you say in order to encourage someone to forget an unpleasant experience or failure and to think about the future instead and move forward.

My e-mail: jjmiller6213@comcast.net

Tuesday, May 19, 2015

GEEZ LOUISE!



Appointment at the primary care doc's at 2:30.  BP still too high, I guess. 180/68.  The bottom number (diastolic) is fine, but I can't seem to keep the top one down.  It will be low at one time of day and high 6 hours later.

Doc says, "I am at my wits end to figure you out.  I usually have no problem getting the blood pressure down."

"I know Doctor John.  I'm perplexed too.  This is way beyond anything that I have researched or tried to figure out."

"I want you to go home and make the earliest appointment you can with Michigan Heart.  Any cardiologist that is available."

"I have an appointment in June with my regular cardiologist."

"Nope...I don't want you to wait.  It isn't real critical, but.................wait a minute...I'm going to page your cardiologist.  Can you give me a urine sample too?  I want to check something out."

"I'm on water pills, remember?  I have to wee like crazy."

"Okay--go pee then come back."

So I did and when I came back, he said, "Dr. Leonen is not returning my page.  He is an awfully busy man.  You go on home.  Call them and tell them I want you in soon."

So I left, stopped at Discount Tires to check the tires and when I got home, there was a message from my doctor's office telling me that the cardiologist called back, wanted me to come in right then.

So up the road I went to the little hospital.  I didn't see the cardiologist, but the nurse said he wanted me to get a blood draw.  

Luckily,the lab is downstairs in the same building.  Got three vials taken out, I didn't even feel it!!!

Got home, another message from the doc's office.  Doc had called in a new med for me.  It would be up at Wal-Mart--back towards the doctor's office.  I went in the bathroom to pee again and the phone rang.  Another message for me from Wal-Mart that they had a prescription ready for me.  Off I went again.

So--one round trip up to Howell and the doc's--10 miles.  
One round trip the other way to Brighton and the little hospital--only 3 miles
One round trip back up to Howell to Wal-Mart--5 miles.  (I guess this is the good reason I don't live way out in the country!)

When I got home, another message--this one from Pammie.  She had stopped in on her way home and I missed her!!!!!

I was damn near exhausted!!!

Then, I heard on the news that we may have a frost tonight so....I had to do this........
 I took an Ativan at 8:00 so now, I am feeling pretty relaxed. :-)


Monday, May 18, 2015

Nice Weekend

Little bit of rain.
Little bit of planting.
Whole lot of crocheting.
A small party on the porch.

It's been kind of hot and muggy, because of the rain I suppose, but a nice breeze.  Nothing like what other people west of here are going through.

Saturday I decided I should get my porch pots planted with the annuals I bought.  I wasn't really in the mood, which is unusual for me, but my porch was so dirty, I wanted to get it back in shape.

Sunday, I crocheted most of the morning and early afternoon.  I am getting paid to test out this pattern, so I need to keep at it/

Sunday,  late afternoon  I planted a couple more pots and then Pearl walked down.  We sat out on the porch and talked,  Than next door Tami came over and Pearl and I sat and listened--there is no conversation with Tami--she talks, you listen and nod--a whole lot like Dar.

Just about dark and John walked by with his dog, Maisey and he came up to the porch and then Tami's hubby came over, so we had quite a chat. 

9:00 rolled around and Pearl wanted to walk on home, but was afraid to break up the party--I had 3 people sitting on the porch steps.  I was getting kind of tired and there was a TV show on I wanted to watch, so I just rousted every one up and walked part of the way with Pearl  When I got back, John, Tami and her hubs were gone.  PRAISE!!

Today my lawn guy came and woke me up at 8:00 with his mowing under the bedroom window.  I jumped on here for awhile, then out to finish the planting.  Crocheted, watched my Soap, then up to Wal-Mart to pick up a prescription that I was out of.  

Had to go through a song and dance this morning to get it.  I was taking 3 a day--doc doubled it, so I ran out, but my insurance wouldn't pay for it BECAUSE it wasn't time!.  Called the doc and had them call in a NEW one that shows 2 tabs, 3 times a day.  Of course that took some time for the doc to get it done and for Wal-Mart to get it filled.

Just saw John walk by with Maisey.  The dog now wants to come up to the porch every time they walk by now.  She's a sweet pup and he's a nice guy, but I wasn't in the mood and glad they didn't stop.  
<He is hinting we should go out for lunch.>

Hot Pink, Dark blue/purple and Chartreuse--again this year.






My view from my recliner.

Friday, May 15, 2015

#1 Grand Babe

#1 Grand Babe stopped at Subway and brought lunch here.  She wanted to come here instead of going out so that we could talk and laugh and not be restricted on time.

Talk and laugh we did and reminisced--from 11:30 until 3:30!!!

I gave her a copy of my book "Grandma's Treasure" and she was excited.

"Gramma, I just love everything you write."

"I'm making a book for Christmas about our family history.  Written in story form."

"I want a copy!  I love hearing stories about everyone in our family.  I really enjoy reading about our genealogy,"

"Well, I found out some new stuff.  I was able to get back into Europe and find where our ancestor's came from...even the ship they sailed on."

"Oh my gosh!  I can't wait."

"My Dad's ancestor's came from Prussia."

"Prussia?  Does that country even exist anymore?"

"I don't think so."
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We talked about our times together when she was little...my goodness, she remembers it all.

"I was just looking at that photo album you made me.  All the pictures in it of you and me and the things we did together.  Remember when we found that octagonal barn and you wanted to climb the ladder and I was scared for you and wouldn't let you?"

"Yup."

"I'm still like that.  I am such a worry wort!"
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Then we talked about her plans.  She has her Master's in Statistics.  She interview with her Dad's company.  He works for a government contract company that views satellite pictures and uses statistics.  That's all we have ever known about it.  He can't tell us what he does.

"So if you work for Dad's company...you will know all the secrets he has never been able to tell us.  Right?"

"Yup...and I won't be able to talk about it either."

"Wow!"

"I'd be here in Michigan for awhile and then, probably, be transferred out to D.C."
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At least she is back here now.  Out of the sand storms of Arizona.  The quakes of California.  Back here where there is no drought, or dust storms and the earth rarely shakes.  I told her, "You are safe back home...in the State shaped like the right hand of God."

She showed me how her smart phone works and we tried to take selfies.  We couldn't get any good ones with her phone, so I had her try with my camera.



When we stand up, we are eye to eye.  She is as tall as I am and was very proud the year she achieved that goal.

Many hugs and kisses and I love you's--then when she got to her car, she ran back for more.

She is the sweetest young woman you would ever meet.  I pray she has a great life.  She so wants to marry and have children...and she'd be the best Mom.

What a wonderful day I had.

Thursday, May 14, 2015

What?

This was me when I got up this morning.  I was supposed go up to The Farm and then out to lunch with my sister, BIL and friends of ours.  I hardly knew what day it was, let alone go through all that, so I called and canceled my visit.  Not only was I foggy, but my head felt like it was 2 feet square and about 6 inches above my neck--just floating there in the air--like a balloon on a string.

I kind of stumbled through the morning.

I have squirrel deterrent that I mix in with my bird seed.  As I mentioned yesterday, apparently my South of the Border rodents like that hot sauce, so---------------



...instead of fighting them, I put out a dish with corn and peanuts.  They do stay away from the bird feeders now, but.........................
...now I have birds eating the squirrel goodies.  I give up!  I am just going to keep the feeders filled and let whomever is hungry eat at whichever feeder they like.
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I fell asleep watching my Soap!  Woke up at 3:00 and decided to run around and buy my annuals.  The weather man has promised we are all done with freezing night-time temperatures.  I went up to Lowe's first and their annuals looked terrible!
Then I drove next door to Wal-Mart and got a flat of Impatiens.

Then I drove across the road to Meijer's to get some Tiny Tunias.  I needed 10 and all they had were plants in large pots at $4.99 a pot!  I think not!

Then I came home and stopped at Bordine's garden center.  The minute I walked in the door, I felt better.  I love that place, but....they are more expensive--their plants are bigger, but...................I got my Tiny Tunia's, and my large Geraniums.  

Do you think you see a color scheme here?  I always plant all my container gardens in the same color scheme.  I have so many other colors in the perennial garden around my porch that I like to keep the containers the same.  I think I might have OCD.
<ya think?>

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My grand daughter Madeleine was asked to be the God Mother of this beautiful baby girl, Astrid. How is Maddie ever going to be able to leave all those people she has known and grown to love in Guatemala?  She was suppose to come home at Easter time, but got her Visa renewed for another three months and will be coming home July 1st.  I have a feeling this won't be her last visit in that country.
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The scent coming in through my open kitchen window is magnificent!


Wednesday, May 13, 2015

Some Days....................

Some days, you're the cat and some days, you're the cat litter.

Today, I am the litter.

You know that new health insurance I signed up for last year?  It gives me 2 free dental cleanings, x-rays and check-up and paid $500.00 for my crown.  It pays $200.00 toward a new pair of glasses that I need.  Great.  Right?

I went to my physical therapy session today--my first one--and found I'd have to pay a $30.00 co-pay for every visit.  3 visits a week, for 6 weeks.  

I had to pay a $45.00 co-pay both times I went to the dermatologist.

My prescriptions used to be free for generic, now they are $2.50, none generic is $6.00.

Plus the $200.00 I owe the hospital and the $219.00 I owe the ambulance company.

Yes--the premium is only $20.00 a month, but...............................


and you can bet, next November, I will be going back on Medicare with a supplemental insurance.  If I had stayed on what I had--ALL my PT would have been covered, as well as the hospital and ambulance, dermatologist and any other procedures I needed.
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Other than that--the grape jelly in the Baltimore Oriole feeder was frozen this morning!!!
The squirrels apparently are illegals from Mexico as they now seem to like the hot pepper sauce that I put in the bird seed.  So--to counteract that, I made a squirrel feeder and filled it with corn and peanuts.  The Chipmunks, Blue Jays, Woodpeckers and Nuthatches like it as well.

My blood pressure is still quite high most of the day.

For some reason, Maggie the cat, yakked up on the carpet.  Not a fur ball, just food.  ARGGH!

My grass is so long that I thought I saw a Python slither through the back yard today.  I cannot afford to get it mowed every week!

I thought the dermatologist look off a thin slice of skin for biopsy--the dang spot still hurts--and today I looked and I have a hole in my leg!!  Apparently he took out a plug of tissue and it has to heal from the inside out?  I put some neosporin and a band-aid on it because it rubs against my pant leg and hurts.

Pammie didn't make it over this week with Evan.

My garbage pail is breaking around the top and one wheel broke off.


Today, I am the litter!!!  I feel like I have been shat upon!

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

Fickle

Fickle--the weather that is.  Near 80 yesterday, only up to 51 today.  I woke up early and was so cold---probably why I woke up.  The bedroom window was open a bit and I closed it and snuggled back in bed, but couldn't recapture sleep.

I got up and went into the living room to turn the thermostat from "off" back to "heat" and my sweet furnace came on and had us warmed up to 71 in no time.

Decided that I should stay up, so I jumped on the computer for a couple of hours.

After my Soap, I traveled into Brighton to get my hair cut.  It was way too long.  Now, it's way too short.  It should be just about perfect in two weeks.  That perfection will last perhaps a day or two and then--it will be unruly and way too long again.  ARGGH!

On my way to the salon, I passed the Meijer gas station and noticed gas was $ 2.29 a gallon.  I was a bit less than half full, so on the way back home--exactly 38 minutes later, I stopped in at that gas station.  Gas was now $2.55 a gallon.  I had already determined I was only going to put $20.00 in, but still--20.00 at $2.29 a gallon would have filled it up.  I get grumpy when things like this happen and just want to slap someone--anyone.  ARGGH!

I also had to pick up some milk--I have been out for nearly a week and I miss my warm cocoa in the morning.  They did not have my fat free/skim milk--only regular full strength milk.  Oh well--it will be good for me.

I came home, snuggled into my recliner and just crocheted the rest of the afternoon.

Today was gray, cold, sprinkly with a chilly wind, which to me equals, a perfect day to snuggle in and crochet or cross stitch or read.

Maybe tomorrow will be better?

Sunday, May 10, 2015

Happy Mother's Day To Me


I got myself a Mother's Day present.



This is the home made one I had been using.

On Friday, a female Baltimore Oriole came to visit.
The first one I have ever seen 

I put up the new feeder, hoping they would like it and...

THEY DID!!
 
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Doubling up on the new BP med.  Are you all tired of hearing about my ongoing battle with high blood pressure?  I know I am!  The day before my AFib incident, my BP was 117/62.  It has been that way for many years.  I took BP meds and they worked fine.  Then the hospital changed up my meds.  Then when I got home, they didn't work, so the doc added some more.  I was severely allergic to one of them and stopped taking it, so he added yet another new one.  Last Thursday, when my BP was 187/65 in his office, he doubled that new med.  It seems to be working.  At least today it is working.  Who knows what tomorrow will bring?

This week my new blood thinner med seems to be working also, as I know have a couple of Senior Tattoos.  That's what someone called the purple bruises that come to the surface of my thin skin, whenever I accidentally hit my wrist on the doorway.  I am a real clutch, so I expect to acquire more of these Senior Tattoos as I move through life.  I hate them!  They make me look like an old person--which I might be, but I have never thought of myself as old---and therein lies the problem with my upset over having to visit the doc every two weeks and having to check my BP three times a day!

I am having too admit I am old and it is really making me quite angry and sad!
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After her Yoga class, Karen took me out for brunch Saturday morning.  She was busy with her own kids on Mother's Day.  Her eldest, Helene, has completed her Master's degree at UCLA and is now home, safe and sound..interviewing for jobs.  I hope she gets the job in Michigan and not the one in Washington, DC!

Lenie's home and her brother Marcus has something growing on his face.




Karen and I were talking about friends.  She said that she had tried to set up a quick get together with some old friends she hasn't seem in a couple of years and one excuse came in after another, so she just forgot about it.  She said, "Everyone is so busy, as am I, but they couldn't seem to find a couple  hours over a weekend to get together.  I miss my friends.  In fact, they don't even exist anymore in my life."

I told Karen I felt the same way.  I miss my friends too.  Sure, I have "friends".  The girls I went to school with--I see them once a month.  Pearl is a friend, I can see her everyday.  What I miss most of all are FRIENDS!!!  That person I have history with.  The one that knew everything about me, good and bad, and would call me out when I was being an idiot, cry with me when I was sad.  That kind of friend.  Soul mate?

Karen's are too busy.  Most of mine are dead!
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I went back to the dermatologist on Thursday afternoon.  He came into the room, "Well the good news is the biopsy on that spot on your leg is fine."

"Of course it is!  I told you it would be."  (I was grumpy)

"I'm sorry you had to go through that.  I am only doing my job and had to check it."

"Yes, I suppose.  Well, because you put me through that torture, can you do me one favor and blast this age spot on my face?"

"Sure.  It's the least I can do."

So he grabbed the pressurized nitrogen and blasted away.  At least I got something good out of the visit to secure my vanity.  I think he only did the biopsy to get money from my insurance company.  I have other "spots" that look far worse than that tiny pimple on the back of my calf!
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I got Mother's Day cards from Pam and Karen, also $30.00--which will go to the buying of annuals for my porch planters.  Did I get a card from Jen?  Did I expect to get a card from Jen?  No to both those questions.  I did get an e-mail from her asking me if I wanted the sewing machine back that I had given her.  They are "staging" their home for sale.  ARGGH!

Did I get a card or a phone call from my son?  You've got to be kidding, right?

HOWEVER--I will get to see Pam and little Evan this week.  Evan picked a very tall dandelion out of their yard.  He handed it to Pam and said, "This is for Mimi because it is tall like Mimi is."  So she is bringing him over either Monday or Tuesday morning.   
<tears--he remembers me!>

Something wonderful that was delivered on Saturday afternoon--from my "daughter" Chris.


Cutest ever?  I'm thinking, when the flowers are done, that cute little watering can will be on my porch filled with some annuals!

Now Chris is one of those FRIENDS that I have shared a WHOLE lot of my emotions/feelings with!! She witnessed the good, the bad and the ugly of my life and still loves me!!

I am very grateful and blessed.