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Onward and upward! something that you say in order to encourage someone to forget an unpleasant experience or failure and to think about the future instead and move forward.

My e-mail: jjmiller6213@comcast.net

Thursday, March 30, 2017

I'm Fine!!!

The worst part of that prep was 3:00am this morning when I had to drink the other bottle of the Suprep.  I mixed it with ice cold Crystal Light Lemonade--which I will never be able to drink again.  I held my breath, and breathed through my mouth for several minutes--followed by water.  But--I was "running clear" as they call it by 6:00 and did get a nap in before Pammie arrived.

We had to drive down the traffic laden expressway in a continual downpour, but found the place and the correct entrance before 9:00.  The worst part of the next phase was the needle in my hand, but I had to have it so I could get the Michael Jackson Special--the Milk of Dreams--Propofol!  I love that stuff!!!

I don't remember it, but the recovery room nurse said I was singing, Jesus Loves Me, while I was waking up.  Pammie was soon sitting right there beside.

The doc removed an internal hemorrhoid I got when Jennifer was born, I wanted the doc to put it in some formaldehyde so I could give it to Jen for her 46th birthday, but he said he had to send it in.   Then he stated, "Considering you have never had a colon-oscopy before, you are in great health for someone your age."  Why do they have to put those last three words on every report I get?  I guess he expected to find polyps?

So, I go back in five years.  As if that is ever going to happen.  LOL.  I'm glad I got it done though.  Along with the lung CT scan, now I know another hidden area in my body is healthy and happy.

We got there at 9:00, my procedure was at 10:00 and Pammie and I were on our way home at 11:09.

Tuesday, March 28, 2017

MIsh Mash of emotions..........

My little sister's 65th birthday--- 






I never thought I'd live long enough to see her this old!
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My best friend's 5th year sadiversary.

68 years we held each other up--







Bethie and I visited her in the hospital hospice
our last time--4 days before she died.

I never thought I'd outlive her.  She fought that evil demon ovarian cancer, for four years, with grace and positiveness, even through her husband's illness and death.  She put all of us in awe with her happy spirit.
Toward the end, she told her family, "Take care of Jude.  This is going to hit her hard."

and it did--------

I still miss her--more than anyone.
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Today, I am to eat light as I prepare for the dreaded COLONOSCOPY PREP day tomorrow.  I fear tomorrow evening/night more than I have feared anything in a very long time!!!

Sunday, March 26, 2017

Thursday, March 23, 2017

Questions and Answers

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Most genealogists will send you pages that look like this and leave it for you to figure out:

My pedigree pages show each individual, then I add pages that show the other family members information and other pages that show the written story of the direct ancestors.  Plus any photos you want added or ones I find, plus--much more. Each book is about 100+ pages with a real nice front and back cover and printed on acid free, archival paper.  They also make nice gifts for family members.

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Someone, I think Deb, asked how far along I was with the cross stitched baby quilt.


What with the basketball tournament continuing until April and then baseball games starting--I should have it finished by the 1st of May.
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PT went very well today.  I have been asking, the last couple of weeks, if my therapist could do the traction machine on my neck.

Finally today, because I still have numbness in my arms and hands, she relented.  She got me adjusted in the head contraption and started it.  OMGosh!  It felt soooooooo good to have my neck stretched up, held for a few minutes, then released and repeat, and repeat, and repeat.  I could almost feel the vertebrae opening up and letting the nerves flow.

My therapist doesn't like to use the kind of "tools" I have had other therapists use with good results.  She prefers manipulations, with her hands which are extremely painful.

She said that we will do the traction each visit from now on.  YAY!!! Anytime I have had PT on my neck, traction is the only thing that gave me really good results!

She had an intern there who is 19 years old.  We had a great conservation about woman's lib, and politics and religion.  My therapist is almost 30, so her mother would be in her 50's.  I told her we needed her mother to join us next time to get a perspective on how it was when she was growing up.  Then we'd have an old woman, one my daughter's age, the therapist my grand daughter's age and the intern, a younger grand daughter.

We agreed on most of the religion and woman's lib stuff.  They are both Liberals, but calm, moderate Liberals, so we all agreed in most part on politics.    I sure got my money's worth today and stirred up my brain.  I loved it.

I would truly enjoy being in a conversation/discussion group---with people younger than me.  When I tried the Senior Citizen group, those people are way too old for me--as are my School chums luncheon group.

They don't want to explore philosophies, or anything interesting.  They mostly just complain about their husbands, and moan about their illnesses.

I do like interacting with younger's and I need the stimulation to keep my brain from dying out.  LOL
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This little Princess is 13 years old today.



 and nearly as tall as Gramma.  My New Jersey girl, Elise Ann.
<sigh>

Tuesday, March 21, 2017

A Truly Lovely Day

I woke up to a bit of haze that turned into nice, warm sunshine and 58 degrees.

I was even inspired to do a bit of vacuuming and dusting and straightening up.  Not in the mood to run up to Walmart, but I needed to take in two bags of pop bottles to return, the cats needed wet food and I needed one last batch of squirrel food and bird seed.

After I got underway, I kind of enjoyed myself.  The Walmart was pretty quiet and calm.  No little kids running around and screaming, just a lot of old people like me, strolling along and looking at everything.

After I left there, I stopped at the Tractor Supply store and got a couple of bags of peanuts, a larger bag of shelled corn, sunflowers seeds and a medium size bag of bird seed.  It was all pretty heavy, but I got it all unloaded, filled up the feeders and put away the groceries.

I got a lot of liquid stuff to drink, some orange Popsicles, and orange jello, chicken broth, some Gatorade and lots of water--in preparation for my two day preparation for the colonoscopy next week.

Then Karen called and wanted to know if I wanted to go out for supper!  We haven't done that in quite a long time so I was excited.  We went to an authentic, hole-in-the-wall Chinese restaurant.  She had General Taos (?) chicken and I had my usual beef and Chinese veggies.  Of course we had the obligatory hot Oolong tea, white rice, soup and egg roll.  We both brought more home than we ate.

We had a wonderful catch-up conservation.  Of course, we talked a lot about her grandbaby, Della.  Della will be baptized April 2.  The other grandma may not come as, come to find out, she is a bit miffed about the whole thing.  Luckily, her son, the husband/Daddy doesn't mind at all.  He doesn't care if the baby is raised Jewish or Catholic.  

Now we all went to the Jewish naming and blessing event the other grandma had and although none of us understood the Hebrew words or the whole ceremony, we found it very interesting and lots of fun.  I like the Jewish grandma and I hope the she comes.  I told Karen, she could sit with me because I won't be going through all the "rigmarole" of kneeling and crossing and getting Holy water sprinkled on me.

Personally, I think it is wonderful that Della will enjoy all the traditions of the Jewish faith and also all the traditions of the Christian faith.  She will learn all the prophecies of the Old Testament and see them come to fruition in the New Testament.
and probably disappoint both grandmas when she grows up, discards both religions and becomes a Methodist.  HAH!

I felt so good today, both emotionally and physically.  I can tell I am standing straighter from the PT and walked all over Walmart, tall and with a firm stride.

I felt alive!!!!!!!!

Monday, March 20, 2017

Whew!

Friday afternoon--late, I got a phone call from my doctor's office.  I did not pick it up and let it go to voice mail.  I was going to wait until Sunday, go into my Patient Portal and read the results myself.

So all day Saturday I reasoned, they wouldn't have called me so late on a Friday if they had bad news and wanted me to come right in.  Then I reasoned that perhaps they had called to set up an early morning appointment on Monday.  Then I just quit reasoning and cross stitched and watched the basketball tournament.

Up early Sunday morning and clicked into my Patient Portal--still the report was not visible.  So I reasoned that they weren't going to allow me to access the report until my doctor cleared it and since I hadn't answered his call on Friday..............................must be something bad showing on that CT scan.

Then, I just quit reasoning, said a prayer of 'whatever will be, will be" and cross stitched and watched the basketball tournament.  I am real good at denial.  If I don't know about it, it doesn't exist.

Then around 2:00, I got real brave.  My anxiety was gone and so I dialed into my voice mail.  

"Hello Miss Judy, this is Michelle from Doc Vassallo's office.  I just wanted to call and let you know your CT scan is normal.  There are no lesions, inflammation or COPD in your lungs.  One teeny nodule, in the lower right lobe, which is nothing and most people have...kind of like a small scar from a bout of the flu or a bad cold you once had. I know when you and I talked, you were expecting something to show up, but.........you're still as healthy as a horse. (laugh).  Have a great weekend, my friend.  Oh, it says here, you can have another one in six months, if you want to.  Byeeeeee."
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Now to prepare my mind for my first colonoscopy on the 30th.  I will think about that next Monday.  This week I have two sessions of PT and nothing else--so far.

Happy Spring!!

Friday, March 17, 2017

Friday--again!

How did I miss Wednesday and Thursday posting?

I went to have my CT lung scan.  It took less time than a mammogram!  Then off to get my hair cut.
It was the Idea of March so I was thinking and missing my Mother a lot.  She has been gone 47 years and I still miss her!
Then I checked my Patient Portal to see the results of the scan and it said, "Pending until March 19th."  Now that freaked me out!  With blood work, I can get the results in 2 hours.  With the x-ray, I got the results the next day.  I am wondering why this is taking so long.  Is there something bad on there and they are going to let my doc know first?

Thursday, I kept expecting to get a phone call from my doc all morning and I vowed I would not answer it!  I want to know the results first.  If it's bad, I can prepare myself.  When I had my chest x-ray last summer, he called and said, "I want you to come in and talk about your x-ray."  I was a nervous wreck for two days.  When I got into his office he asked, "Why do you get these?  They won't show anything important.  You need to get a CT scan."  Nothing had shown up on the x-ray.

I took off outta here at noon to drive the 45 minutes north to have lunch with my Old School Gal Pals.  There were 8 of us today.  Missing Bethie who now has a Chamber Commerce meeting the third Thursday of every month.  So I campaigned for her that we change lunch days.  I thought the third Wednesday instead, but one of the gals baby sits her great grand kids on Wednesdays and another one goes to a quilting group every Wednesday.  So, we just moved the lunch day up to the 2nd Thursday of every month.  All those in favor, say Aye.  Those opposed? (None). The Ayes have it.

Then out to The Farm to visit with little sister.  We had a really nice conversation and I dropped off her birthday prezzie.  Home by 6:00 with daylight to spare.
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The few Irish ancestors I have came from Northern Ireland and were "Orangemen".

We never celebrated St. Patrick's Day, but the guy does deserve some credit.  He rid that land of snakes, so he's a good guy in my opinion.  
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Today both University of Michigan and Michigan State University played basketball games in the NCAA March Mania tournament.  One at noon and one at 9:20 tonight.

You know what I'll be doing during that time.  You do know?  Then, pretty soon it will all be over and I can concentrate on Major League baseball.  I do love to watch baseball.  It is a nice slow game and a lot of cross stitching can be done without having to look up a lot.  (insert smiley face).