A different feeling this year--the week between Christmas and New Year's. It's like I'm in limbo--waiting for something to happen. Like there is something I am supposed to do--an appointment or something equally important--and I've forgotten about it. I keep looking at my calendar and there are no notations on the days of this week. For some reason, it just feels odd to me. Maybe because Christmas came on a Sunday, and to me, it felt like any ordinary Sunday and so this week is supposed to be dotted with grocery shopping, or other errands?
It's probably just me. I am a weird duck at times. My thought processes and all.
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I have noticed that some blog buddies get upset if they don't have enough visitor's to their blog each day. I have no clue how to even check and see who or how many stop by for a read. The only way I know, is from the comments left. I don't really care how many visitor's I have. Maybe that's because my blog isn't an educational one? It's kind of like my diary--where I write down the weird things I think of and tell you to see if you ever have those same thoughts. It's always comforting when someone says they too feel the same way--makes me realize that I'm not the only one with strange thoughts in this world. LOL
It would be nice if everyone that stopped by left a comment, but that's not necessary. I won't quit writing my posts just because people don't comment or even stop by. I guess this blog is for me--to post in and not feel so alone and lonely.
"You need to get out more," people tell me. Even my son said, "You should get a job at Walmart as a greeter or go to the Senior Center." EGAD!!! Is he trying to give me advice or drive me nutz? Of course, at 58 years old and out and about to have lunch with his friends everyday, he has no clue.
Going out requires gas for the car. I am allowed $20.00 a month gas money in my budget. "Go to the Mall and just walk around." Why in the world would I want to do that? I have never enjoyed going to the Mall or shopping, even when I was younger. If I went to the Mall or any store, it was to get what I needed, get outta there and get back home.
Where I grew up, on the farm, and after I was married--going to town--which was 20 miles away--was for a specific reason. To get food or a dentist or doctor appointment. Usually we did two or three of those things in one trip. Dentist appointment for me and the kids, then grocery shopping.
I make lists of things I have to do and where I have to go and try and do all of them in one afternoon. Go to the bank, hair cut, stop at the inkjet refill store, stop at Michael's for needed supplies. I can honestly say that in the 13 years I have lived here--only 2.5 miles away from a lot of stores, I have never gone--what we used to call, window shopping. Why would I want to browse in a store, knowing full well there was nothing in that store that I needed or wanted? Such a waste of time. I much prefer to shop on-line, but then too, it is always for something I need--not just to "look around."
Perhaps it's the money issue. I don't have a spare dollar to spend and if I went browsing, I'd probably see something that I really wanted and couldn't buy. I tend to like the Pier One store up the way, went in there twice to buy something I needed, but know enough to stay out. There would be a trunk or a colored glass canister set or something I'd love to have. Nope! Just stay away.
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The only shopping I have enjoyed this past few years was shopping for my carpet and furniture. BUT--I didn't browse. I did that on-line and knew when I entered the store what I wanted--found it--ordered it--and got out.
No wonder I am bored most of the time. HAH!
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Marcia asked about John--since his dog Maisey died, I haven't seen him much. He walked her twice a day and they always stopped in so Maisey could get her treat--Cheerios. For nearly two years--I saw them twice a day.
John took a custodial job at the high school--working nine to five--at night! Personally, I think it's too much for him with his bad shoulder, knee and foot, but he reacted much like a person whose spouse had died. Jumping into something new right away.
I've known a lot of widows/widowers who started dating immediately, or bought a brand new car, or sold the house. He's kind of acting like that--only getting a job.
I see him maybe twice a month now and it's always for a reason. He bought muffins at Costco and he thinks I need one. He stopped over on the 24th with a gift--cashews. I gave him 2 quarts of spaghetti sauce I had made. Other than that, if I am sitting in this street facing room, I see him drive by on his way to work, at 8:30 in the evening, or on his way to church on Sunday. That's it.
He did clean out our driveways after the big 9" snow drop early this month, but he didn't stop in to get warm, like he used too. I expect any day, to hear that he is selling his place and moving back to Brighton. He much prefers living in town where he can walk to everything.
I guess, Maisey was our connection and now that she's gone, so is the connection?
Thursday, December 29, 2016
Wednesday, December 28, 2016
New Year
I always like to get a new cross stitch project to start on New Year's day and work on during the winter months. This is what I settled on this year--sorry it is blurry, I couldn't enlarge it without the blurs. The pattern cost $7.50. I already have all the embroidery yarn I will need the the light blue Aida-14ct cloth. I think this is going to be complicated, a lot of work and beautiful when it is done.
I got the tree and all the decorations put away. What I used to do in 3-4 hours, now takes me 3-4 days. My back is killing me and I know it would get better if I just went to physical therapy, but I can't get motivated to go 2-3 times a week--even though the place is only 1 mile away from home.
GEEZ LOUISE--I am such a stick-in-the-mud!!! It still surprised me that I was strong enough this year to do it all in one day.
Today I did 6 loads of laundry, vacuum, dusted and cleaned, living room, kitchen, bathroom and bedroom and put my hanging room divider back up, without dropping any of the blown glass balls. Have hauled out two cans of rubbish for tomorrow pick-up and tomorrow I WILL start on this room.
I can't even bring myself to show you a photo of this room. There are papers and boxes, cocoa mugs, USB port wires--scrapbooks and extra yarn laying all over in here--plus dust is very visible on every surface. Why I haven't attacked it long before now, is some kind of mystery.
It's simple enough, start at the doorway and worked my way around clock-wise--to the right. It does get messy when I am working on a genealogy and have extra folding tables and stacks of print-outs sitting in here, but I don't have that excuse. I finished my last one and mailed it out on the 21st.
The one I did for the young woman--for free--and have heard nothing back from her. Which I suppose is typical. As I remember her, she never said Thank-You all the time (2.5 years) I knew here. Guess just because she is now 23, she hasn't changed.
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The cute little white cloche hat I made for the baby, wouldn't even fit over her head. 3-6 months size--on the large size of that. So I am remaking it in 12 months size--hoping that might fit, at least in and through the spring.
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The latest report I have on Dar--on her 9th doctor. No one can find anything that resulted from her accident 7 months ago. Her insurance has dropped her $$$ from the other insurance company. Her personal injury attorney has told her she doesn't have much of a case, and the Meijer store she worked for is going to fire her. BUT--even I wonder, why a woman could work 8 hours a day, 5 days a week, standing up all the time as a cashier and only after this accident, is she in such pain she can barely walk, sit or sleep. Could it all be psychosomatic?
The last time I saw her, she was upset that her son hadn't called or come to visit her Dad. The son that she kicked out, along with two grandchildren, and told him never to come back again--that son. She invited her older son to live with her and Dad, while he gets "established" after his last stint in re-hab--the same one she vowed she would never let in her house--and three months later, has found out he is drinking again.
Her 95 year old father is driving her nuts--we ALL knew that would happen--because he HAS to go out either for breakfast, supper or an ice cream cone every day. No matter what. When we had the big 9 inch snow storm--she had to call a professional to come clear the driveway and part of the streets in the park so she and Dada could get out onto the road.
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As for Merle and Pearl. I need to get down and visit them again--maybe tomorrow. Merle is doing great! Once his Parkinson's was diagnosed and they got him on the meds for it. he's a new man. He walks or rides his bike all over the park every day. His hands don't shake anymore and his voice is clear and strong. He shovels his own driveway! Takes out the garbage and -
Just got a phone call from Pearl to come right down!
I ran out of here in my slippers and no coat and walked really fast. I thought maybe she was in trouble and Merle wasn't home.
Whew! Nothing wrong. Merle and their daughter were grocery shopping and Pearl? She just wanted to show me a glass butterfly she had bought for herself.
She can't put a complete sentence together without forgetting words. I try and think of what she might be trying to say, or a place she is trying to tell me about, so I can help. She is failing and knows it. She is back at another physical therapy place where they are trying to get her body "opened up", so she can walk better. She is using a walker and can barely walk with that! She has fallen twice in the grocery store because the cart moves too fast and she can keep up with it, so down she goes onto her knees. She fell last week, trying to get out of bed and to the bathroom in the middle of the night. She is so heavy that Merle couldn't get her up, so he had to call 911 to come help.
I feel bad and know she is in a lot of pain, but in reality--it IS her own fault. A couple of years ago, she mentioned that she just wanted to be in a wheel chair and she stopped moving around very much. She is at least 80 pounds overweight, which of course is causing pain in her knees and feet. She mainly sits in her chair and watches TV all day. Once you stop moving, you're in trouble.
I have explained it all to her and she knows it. This is her third physical therapy this year alone, but she never keeps up with it. Won't do any of the recommended "at home" exercises.
She has someone come in and clean every week and her daughter gets her groceries for her. I would LOVE to have someone get groceries for me, but.......I purposefully go to Walmart--start at the Pharmacy end of the store and walk up and down aisles on my way to the other side of the store. I figure that's about the only good exercise I get in the winter and I count my steps. It's 400 steps from the sports area over to the grocery area. I know I can walk 400 steps now, so sometimes, I walk in at the grocery door, walk over to the pharmacy and then to the back of the store than over to the grocery side--just to increase my steps.
Pearl relies on her husband and her daughter's a lot. I don't have that luxury, so I gotta keep my own self in some sort of shape or my goose is cooked!!!
I'm ready for the new year. My house will be ready for the new year by end of tomorrow. Bring on the Bowl games and my annual snack plate of Summer Sausage, sharp cheddar cheese, Ritz crackers and Sweet Bread and Butter pickles.
I got the tree and all the decorations put away. What I used to do in 3-4 hours, now takes me 3-4 days. My back is killing me and I know it would get better if I just went to physical therapy, but I can't get motivated to go 2-3 times a week--even though the place is only 1 mile away from home.
GEEZ LOUISE--I am such a stick-in-the-mud!!! It still surprised me that I was strong enough this year to do it all in one day.
Today I did 6 loads of laundry, vacuum, dusted and cleaned, living room, kitchen, bathroom and bedroom and put my hanging room divider back up, without dropping any of the blown glass balls. Have hauled out two cans of rubbish for tomorrow pick-up and tomorrow I WILL start on this room.
I can't even bring myself to show you a photo of this room. There are papers and boxes, cocoa mugs, USB port wires--scrapbooks and extra yarn laying all over in here--plus dust is very visible on every surface. Why I haven't attacked it long before now, is some kind of mystery.
It's simple enough, start at the doorway and worked my way around clock-wise--to the right. It does get messy when I am working on a genealogy and have extra folding tables and stacks of print-outs sitting in here, but I don't have that excuse. I finished my last one and mailed it out on the 21st.
The one I did for the young woman--for free--and have heard nothing back from her. Which I suppose is typical. As I remember her, she never said Thank-You all the time (2.5 years) I knew here. Guess just because she is now 23, she hasn't changed.
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The cute little white cloche hat I made for the baby, wouldn't even fit over her head. 3-6 months size--on the large size of that. So I am remaking it in 12 months size--hoping that might fit, at least in and through the spring.
The latest report I have on Dar--on her 9th doctor. No one can find anything that resulted from her accident 7 months ago. Her insurance has dropped her $$$ from the other insurance company. Her personal injury attorney has told her she doesn't have much of a case, and the Meijer store she worked for is going to fire her. BUT--even I wonder, why a woman could work 8 hours a day, 5 days a week, standing up all the time as a cashier and only after this accident, is she in such pain she can barely walk, sit or sleep. Could it all be psychosomatic?
The last time I saw her, she was upset that her son hadn't called or come to visit her Dad. The son that she kicked out, along with two grandchildren, and told him never to come back again--that son. She invited her older son to live with her and Dad, while he gets "established" after his last stint in re-hab--the same one she vowed she would never let in her house--and three months later, has found out he is drinking again.
Her 95 year old father is driving her nuts--we ALL knew that would happen--because he HAS to go out either for breakfast, supper or an ice cream cone every day. No matter what. When we had the big 9 inch snow storm--she had to call a professional to come clear the driveway and part of the streets in the park so she and Dada could get out onto the road.
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As for Merle and Pearl. I need to get down and visit them again--maybe tomorrow. Merle is doing great! Once his Parkinson's was diagnosed and they got him on the meds for it. he's a new man. He walks or rides his bike all over the park every day. His hands don't shake anymore and his voice is clear and strong. He shovels his own driveway! Takes out the garbage and -
Just got a phone call from Pearl to come right down!
I ran out of here in my slippers and no coat and walked really fast. I thought maybe she was in trouble and Merle wasn't home.
Whew! Nothing wrong. Merle and their daughter were grocery shopping and Pearl? She just wanted to show me a glass butterfly she had bought for herself.
She can't put a complete sentence together without forgetting words. I try and think of what she might be trying to say, or a place she is trying to tell me about, so I can help. She is failing and knows it. She is back at another physical therapy place where they are trying to get her body "opened up", so she can walk better. She is using a walker and can barely walk with that! She has fallen twice in the grocery store because the cart moves too fast and she can keep up with it, so down she goes onto her knees. She fell last week, trying to get out of bed and to the bathroom in the middle of the night. She is so heavy that Merle couldn't get her up, so he had to call 911 to come help.
I feel bad and know she is in a lot of pain, but in reality--it IS her own fault. A couple of years ago, she mentioned that she just wanted to be in a wheel chair and she stopped moving around very much. She is at least 80 pounds overweight, which of course is causing pain in her knees and feet. She mainly sits in her chair and watches TV all day. Once you stop moving, you're in trouble.
I have explained it all to her and she knows it. This is her third physical therapy this year alone, but she never keeps up with it. Won't do any of the recommended "at home" exercises.
She has someone come in and clean every week and her daughter gets her groceries for her. I would LOVE to have someone get groceries for me, but.......I purposefully go to Walmart--start at the Pharmacy end of the store and walk up and down aisles on my way to the other side of the store. I figure that's about the only good exercise I get in the winter and I count my steps. It's 400 steps from the sports area over to the grocery area. I know I can walk 400 steps now, so sometimes, I walk in at the grocery door, walk over to the pharmacy and then to the back of the store than over to the grocery side--just to increase my steps.
Pearl relies on her husband and her daughter's a lot. I don't have that luxury, so I gotta keep my own self in some sort of shape or my goose is cooked!!!
I'm ready for the new year. My house will be ready for the new year by end of tomorrow. Bring on the Bowl games and my annual snack plate of Summer Sausage, sharp cheddar cheese, Ritz crackers and Sweet Bread and Butter pickles.
Monday, December 26, 2016
Pictorial Christmas 2016
Della Helene Hannah Ruth's 1st Christmas
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| Mark, Pam, Maddie & me |
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| This daughter of mine is a brat n' a half--photo bombed me with the rabbit ears or devil horns or whatever. |
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The best photo Susan and I have had taken together in years and years |
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My sister collects bird figurines of all the birds she sees at her feeders. I have given her the ones I had collected and this year, I added to her Lenox collection with a Blue Bird. 
The annual "stair" Christmas Grand kids photo.
L-R back row: Stephen--Marcus
Susanna--Maddie
Me
Helene and sleeping Della
My grandson Marcus' girlfriend--Morgan
Just a tiny little thing that dances ballet
AND
raises hogs and shows them at the fair
Della's 1st Hannukah
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The only unspoken irritant I had? The grand kids sat at the end of the room, on their phones, texting each other. Not watching anyone else open gifts and only engaging when they opened one of theirs. In my humble opinion--cell phones should be banned during family get togethers!
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Christmas Eve evening, my sister called.
"Did this day seem strange to you?"
"Yes. Strange and sad. For seventy-seven years I have celebrated Christmas on Christmas Eve. It's been a very long, lonely, sad day."
"I know. Me too. Plus, I've been sick all day."
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On Christmas Day, I accepted an invitation from Pearl and Merle to go to their son's house to join their family Christmas.
Let's just say--it was a different kind of Christmas gathering than I have ever witnessed.
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Now, this grumpy, old, critical woman is going to get the decorations outta here and get my house cleaned up, ready to meet a clean, new year.
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Saturday, December 24, 2016
Happy Hanukkah
Happy Hanukkah, which started today at sundown. Some people refer to this time as the
“Festival of Light”—I like to call it the celebration of the “Miracle of the
Oil”, because it truly was a miracle from God
Hanukkah
is an eight day and night Jewish festival to celebrate the rededication of the
Holy Temple in Jerusalem, which took place in the 2nd century B.C. The
Greek-Syrian ruler Antiochus IV had tried to force Greek culture on the Jews in
Judea (Israel).
This rededication of the Holy Temple took place after the
Maccabees (Jewish religious rebels) reclaimed the temple. Hanukkah is the
Hebrew word for dedication.
Hanukkah begins on the 25th day of Kislev, which
can occur any time from late November to late December, depending on the Hebrew
calendar. To celebrate Hanukkah, a nine-branch candelabrum called a Menorah, is
lit one candle each night until the eighth night--January 1st, this year. The additional branch and
light (9th candle) is used to light the other candles.
The celebration lasts for eight days for historical reasons.
When the Maccabees reclaimed the Holy Temple, there was enough purified oil to
keep the temple lit for only one day. By some miracle, the light burned for
eight days.
Friday, December 23, 2016
2016 Christmas Letter
What a wondrous year I have had.
Last Christmas Eve found us celebrating at my daughter
Pam’s house—the one where I lived and raised my children. Jennifer and her family were in the midst of
moving to New Jersey on that day, so they weren’t with us---
My son-in-law Eric, will take over his father’s
prosthetics/orthotics business. Jennifer
is commuting between NJ and the law firm she is partner with, here in
Southfield, MI. She is an expert on
setting up Non-Profit organizations, so she travels to Washington, DC often and
all over to different States and abroad.
This past September, she was with our Governor and State
representatives on Mackinaw Island. They
have a busy life and so unlike the one she grew up in. Sometimes I wonder if it is all worth it?
To say I miss these 4 Grandchildren, would be an
understatement.
My son Mark in the front, his wife Cindy; back left, my
Karen, Pam and Karen’s husband Mark.
I also acquired a new grandson—to my right, Mike, husband
to Helene, holding their dog, Marcus, Susanna, Stephen and Madeleine.
In June, grandson Stephen, graduated from Michigan State
with a degree in Physiology. He had his
“white coat” ceremony and started medical school in August. Madeleine, far right, is studying to be a
nurse. The first medical people we have
ever had in our family
Another first, on my daughter Karen’s birthday, October
24th, she became a grandma for the first time and I became a great grandma.
Four generations
Grand daughter Helene Mary, Karen Helene and precious 11
day old Della Helene.
She was named after my mother’s middle name, Della and my
grandmother Helene, and her momma and grandma.
My sister Susan and her husband enjoy living in our
ancestor’s home they renovated, and are enjoying their retirement. I am so happy to have them close.
Yes—she is a
Mini-Me. We look a lot alike.
I have been truly blessed this past year. A friend designs and sells patterns for
knitted and crocheted items. She sends me
the design pattern and I work it up to make sure the pattern is correct. She pays me for sitting in front of the TV
and knitting and crocheting. Who can
beat that kind of job?
I also started doing genealogy research for clients. When I am finished with all the research and
everything I can find about their ancestor’s, I write it up in book form, with
photos, census reports, marriage licenses, whatever I can find. I have become quite obsessed with doing
genealogy. So, if you want your genealogy traced, just let me know. I do a great job!! J
This added income has enabled me to get most of the
interior of this place painted, along with new carpeting and furniture for the
living room and, something I have wanted for years and years, a
“fireplace”. Yes—it is electric, but it
does have a heater inside. I usually
only use the flame setting for ambiance on a cool evening.
The fur kids, Buddy and Maggie seem to
enjoy it a lot.
Thankfully, we are all fine, healthy and happy. My last doctor visit revealed I have “the
blood work of a 50 year old,” which is great.
However doctor had no ideas on how to “cure” the pain of arthritis,
tinnitus ringing in my ears and sometimes, dizzy spells from my meds. HAH!!
So, in this joyous season, I pray God has blessed you and
will continue to bless all of us in the new year.
And
Love—Jude
Thursday, December 22, 2016
All of a sudden.....
because that's the way it always goes, my depression has lifted and I am smiling and happy.
It's always like that. I can go to bed, content and happy and wake up the next morning in a depression that gets deeper as the days go by. I come out of it just as quickly. I have no reason why it happens like that, but...........glad it's gone.
Maybe it's because the sun is shining and it's 40 degrees today? Maybe it's because I posted a Merry Christmas on FB to all my extra grand children--the ones I have met through my real grandkids, and I got really loving comments back from some of them.
Maybe it's because tomorrow at noon, we will meet at Karen's and have a good time. Yes, my youngest and her family will be absent, but my original 3 will be there--the 3 of my youth and my son's cancer is not active, right now. Right now! Who knows what next year will bring, but right now--I am happy and grateful for that.
All five of Karen's kids will be there, plus my 2 month old great grand baby, and Pammie and sister Susan is even bringing her 3 grand children--my great nephew and nieces.
So--at this moment in time, and really, isn't that all we ever have? I am happy.
It's always like that. I can go to bed, content and happy and wake up the next morning in a depression that gets deeper as the days go by. I come out of it just as quickly. I have no reason why it happens like that, but...........glad it's gone.
Maybe it's because the sun is shining and it's 40 degrees today? Maybe it's because I posted a Merry Christmas on FB to all my extra grand children--the ones I have met through my real grandkids, and I got really loving comments back from some of them.
Maybe it's because tomorrow at noon, we will meet at Karen's and have a good time. Yes, my youngest and her family will be absent, but my original 3 will be there--the 3 of my youth and my son's cancer is not active, right now. Right now! Who knows what next year will bring, but right now--I am happy and grateful for that.
All five of Karen's kids will be there, plus my 2 month old great grand baby, and Pammie and sister Susan is even bringing her 3 grand children--my great nephew and nieces.
So--at this moment in time, and really, isn't that all we ever have? I am happy.
Wednesday, December 21, 2016
A Cause for Celebration?
Today is my half-year birthday. Is that a cause for celebration? Nope! There is always the thought, I could be dead by this time next year. I suppose that is why I pack away my Christmas decorations--all carefully marked with names on the boxes of who is to get certain ornaments. I'm like a Boy Scout--always be prepared.
Christmas is coming soon--Friday will be our family get together. Not Christmas Eve, as it has been for the 77 years of my life, but Friday. Bah Humbug!!! Put the smile on my face and make sure I "appear" happy so I don't make anyone feel bad.
So this year, not only will I be alone on Christmas Day, but Christmas Eve also. I may use those two days to put all the decorations away!!
This is what I posted on Face Book:
"I wish I knew where this black cloud of depression came from. I have no reason to be blue or sad or depressed, but I sure as heck am and have been for a couple of weeks. I won't listen to Christmas music because it just makes it worse. and, if I hear "I'll be Home for Christmas", one more time in a store, I am going to stand in the corner and cry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
I was really surprised at how many of my FB friends feel the same way. Even those who are married and will have ALL their family gathered together on Christmas Day.
I decorated to the hilt this year, because my sister insisted that it would make me feel better. It just makes me sadder.
So what is there to celebrate on this half-year birthday of mine? It is the Winter Solstice and as of tomorrow, the day-light hours are going to start to become longer.
I'm real happy about that, but honestly--I do prefer the Summer Solstice!
Christmas is coming soon--Friday will be our family get together. Not Christmas Eve, as it has been for the 77 years of my life, but Friday. Bah Humbug!!! Put the smile on my face and make sure I "appear" happy so I don't make anyone feel bad.
So this year, not only will I be alone on Christmas Day, but Christmas Eve also. I may use those two days to put all the decorations away!!
This is what I posted on Face Book:
"I wish I knew where this black cloud of depression came from. I have no reason to be blue or sad or depressed, but I sure as heck am and have been for a couple of weeks. I won't listen to Christmas music because it just makes it worse. and, if I hear "I'll be Home for Christmas", one more time in a store, I am going to stand in the corner and cry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
I was really surprised at how many of my FB friends feel the same way. Even those who are married and will have ALL their family gathered together on Christmas Day.
I decorated to the hilt this year, because my sister insisted that it would make me feel better. It just makes me sadder.
So what is there to celebrate on this half-year birthday of mine? It is the Winter Solstice and as of tomorrow, the day-light hours are going to start to become longer.
I'm real happy about that, but honestly--I do prefer the Summer Solstice!
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